gobble gobble gobble

a turkey tom and a turkey mom go gobble gobble gobble all the day
arm in arm
on the farm
as they strut their merry ways
a turkey tom and a turkey mom go gobble gobble gobble all the day
remember these?! i wish i had some construction paper to make one.

we are about to head to penn station to catch a train on the Long Island Railroad (LIRR) to Hicksville. Yup. Hicksville. We are spending Thanksgiving with Jon's Uncle (his moms brother), Aunt, and their three sons. I am so missing my family right now - it's my first Thanksgiving away from home. It will be nice to be able to spend the holiday with Jon's family.

I am so super tired right now and think I just might sleep during the one hour train ride. A little power nap before the festivities begin!

I am thankful for my supportive and loving family,
my fun and faithful friends,
my wonderful boyfriend,
good health and bounds of happiness,
happy and hearty laughter,
freedom,
the talents I have been blessed with,
God's amazing love and grace,
my new york city home and my san antonio home,
the san antonio spurs & the dallas cowboys.

Just a few of the things I am thankful for.

What are you thankful for?

wordle

a compilation of the words in my blog -- i think it might be just from the most recent posts - the ones that appear on the initial page you arrive on. not quite sure how it works.

the bigger the word, the more often it is used.

i think this is pretty cool.

check it out at wordle.net

whats your personal homestyle??

i came across this posting at apartmenttherapy.com/ -- if you are wondering what your personal homestyle is, you can take this quiz.

Hmm. It said i was "country classic". no doubt that comes from my southern roots. feeling cozy and comfortable in a home is always my first priority. here is what they said about being "country classic"
i agree with some of these points - but i feel mostly that what i agree with most is the feeling a country classic home leaves you feeling. as far as personal taste and style - i would like to think i have a more contemporary taste. i dont know though. maybe once i get my apartment decorated and settled to my 'ideal' (or atleast my ideal for what i can do now) i can take photos and you can weigh in on your own opinions.

i just might take this quiz again and see what i get!! :)

just maybe

i got to sleep in today.
such a good feeling. i woke feeling so comfortable and cozy and didnt want to get out of bed.

i made fish tacos for lunch.
with mango salsa and homemade guac. i would have to admit they were pretty stellar.

jon got free tickets to the taping of comedy central presents : shane mauss & rachel feinstein. both were fully hilarious and made me laugh over and over again.

we went to dinner at beacon .
it was amazing. i had an incredible filet mignon with a cabernet wild mushroom sauce.
heaven. an absolutely delicious meal.

all in all the day was wonderful. good food. good entertainment. good company.
all in this beautiful, magical city.

but.
((why does there have to be a 'but'????))

after getting home from dinner and getting ready to head to the les to celebrate my sweet friend erins birthday, i was overcoming with such a great amount of emotion. ((read as: i was having an emotional fit and couldnt stop crying... while jon looked at me trying to understand and not understanding why this was happening...))

maybe its the cold weather that is creeping in and reminding me that winter is on its way.
and i know from an email from dolores today that it was a gorgeous/windows open kind of day in san antonio.


maybe its because its november. and i know that means thanksgiving.
and i know that this will be the first thanksgiving that i wont be with my family.

maybe its because last weekend was homecoming at tcu.
and i know how badly i wish i could have been there in fort worth with my girls.

maybe it's because basketball season started.
and i know that the spurs fans in the city are practically non-existant.

maybe its because my cousin stacey just posted pictures on facebook of my family and my cousins playing at my house.
and i know that if i were there i would be stuck in the middle next to david amongst all those little ones.

whatever it may be... maybe, just maybe all of these little things have built up and have really struck me. im having a moment.

timeout.
i know i live in an incredible city.
i know i am a lucky girl to have this opportunity.
i know i am blessed to be where i am.

but.
((because there's always a but?))

i miss my family and i miss home.
i can't help it.
and i don't think it's fair to hold it against me.

i thought that having jon here would help with the sadness of missing home on occassion. but i realized, that while it is awesome having him here, it doesnt prevent me from still missing home.

so for now, i just wanted to reflect and let it be known that yes, i realize i am one of the luckiest girls in the world.

i live in new york city.
and in this city i am actively pursuing a career that excites me. i have a boyfriend that cares about me, makes me happy and keeps me smiling. i have friends that are talented, and funny and have good hearts.

i have so much more than many people can say they have.
and yet i can still find myself in this moment of sadness?

i believe it's because while i am so blessed here in the city, so much of my heart is in texas where i have deep friendships and the most amazing family in the world. i love you all so very much - please know i am thinking of you today and always.

so there.
thanks for bearing with me.
just needed to get that one of my chest!

going to get cozy and perhaps get to bed early tonight.
love.